home. resting. trying to relax. reluctant to exercise, work up a sweat, need to quench thirst. surfing from channel to channel. mindlessly watching TV. no energy to do much else. not even read or color, crochet/knit. thankful to be able to blog from bed - finally, Internet access. nibbling on easily accessible snack foods i shouldn't: oranges, avocados, tomatoes, hummus, nuts... damn renal diet! also, i'm so thirsty. want a humongous glass of iced water. it's early afternoon. day is still young. have more medication to take later. i have to watch my fluid intake. remain close to my dry weight. dialysis day tomorrow. feeling anxious. avoiding going to the cooler and gulping down water defiantly. very hard. discipline. determination. imagine that - consuming too much liquids can ultimately kill me. beverage commercials with ice cubes are the worst, right now. so, so thirsty. sigh.