Monday, August 17, 2015

Good News! Test, labs came back normal. Thankful.

Had a precautionary D&C after some alarming post-menopausal bleeding. Last menstrual cycle December 2013. Initially sad, anguished at the seemingly abrupt finality of my cherished conception days (maternal. I longed to have more children. Enjoyed being pregnant/nursing & now rearing), nonetheless, I was slowly but surely becoming accustomed to life without pads or tampons. In my late forties and already dealing with situations commonly seen in the elderly -- usually I'm the youngest one in medical waiting rooms for the type of specialist I'm required to see. Following hospitalization(s), during doctor's appointments I was moving about slowly (with my husband's assistance) on my walker or being wheeled in on my wheelchair alongside the other aged patients. *Grateful those days of frustrating dependence are fewer and far between. So thankful to be gaining better mobility and longer lasting strength. *My kids were/are raised hearing me say, "whine & complain less & be thankful for the quality of your health more". Remembering back, once I became cognizant, the reality of my circumstances were troubling. Therapy. Dialysis. Renal Diet. Fluid Restriction. No more contact sports. Exhaustion from poor/non-functioning kidneys. Can't control or fix the situation. Have to rely on others. Disfigurements (AV fistula/Hemodialysis catheter). Aneurysm on my aorta (monitored). Medical cost & bills. Altered lifestyle. Test after test. Surgery after surgery. Pain, discomforts, anxiety/fears with each. Currently I'm un-phased by it all, majority of the time.

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